An eventful Sunday II

28th November 2005,

4.44pm Monday evening. It's time to go back. Praise God, I've finished my report for new system. Pray that tomorrow system discussion will be fruitful.

Evenful Sunday II..it's yesterday happening. It's like that. Sunday I have Pharmacy Meeting around 1.30pm. I didn't attend church that day because I attend saturday service. And, Mum fetch me to church on saturday- she drove my Kenari. So, means she keep my car key....alright, Sunday I sleep till 8.30am, wanna sleep longer but normal biological clock wake me up...so wake up, do devotion- read Bible, worshipping...pray for the coming Meeting, asked God for wisdom, patience and love...renewed love for Him and people. Sat service was good- the sermon is hard, and forceful and it leave a challenge for us to work out our lives- a message to carry on. Are we carrying that message of Christ? Yeah, so good about Saturday, Sunday something happen- I almost want to cry and lost my patience.

I plan to go hospital early- plan to take my lunch first then go hospital to prepare White Board and set up meeting. Everything set, everything ready- try to search for my Kenari key- Oh No! Where is it? Mum must have took it away and put in her bag. Trying to search the old bag- can't find...Oh No! How can that be? Tried called mum's HP: Switch Off...Oh NO! How can this happen in such a wonderful Sunday? Re-Search the bag again- no key...pause, where did I put my spare key? Any spare keys? Doing thorough search in the house, every single drawer search..search...search. It's like treasure hunt, worse than treasure hunt. Oh No...how can this happen to me God? I just praise You, worship You..wanna start a fresh new day, Oh Gosh...this happen, how am I going to Hospital? I don't like interupted plan...not today, not now...Oh ya, Amazing Grace church is just nearby, I can run there, maybe can catch mum...it's 11.45am. Oh Gosh, I hope I have the time-then, all the way- I run, I run and I run to Amazing Grace- to rescue my Kenari Key. Reach there gasping for air- look left and right, front and back...Oh No! Where's mummy's car? Where's her old Datsun? Oh No! How come she so fast go off? Tried called her HP again- Not on. Geee...that's bad. I scratched my head and stamped my feet. Looking helpless, walk without direction...till I reach Mobil Petrol Station.. hungry, haven't take breakfast. Bought an Choc Ice-Cream to fill my tummy and soothed my 'mood'. Oh God, how can I be so short tempered? I should give praise in such time rather than complaining....Called up Yamunes, she can't fetch me. Called up Phei- my angel, she agreed to fetch me. Praise God.

Reached hospital on time 1.30pm. Praise God, but quite kelam kabut with preparation- but overall, thank God- things run smoothly. Toh fetched me back home. I reach home, mummy cool, didn't even know I'm angry...or rather frustrated. After knowing the situation, she said the key in old bag...how can I not found it? Gee....dunno how to response.

Anyway..it's just some eventful Sunday- a lesson to learn:
1. Do not let the sun go down while you're still angry. (Praise Him despite circumtances- don't let situation change yr mood)
2. Identify the spare-key
3. Don't be kelam kabut- coz kelam kabut things that is in front of you- you won't see it, you'll be blinded by your own frustration
4. Friends are angels- they offer help in times of need, that's real fren. At least I hv frens to call on to
5. In such situation, God is still with me. Meeting runs well- it's fruitful, we came up with a lot ideas after brainstorming for our new systems.
6. Forgive and Forget- mum just forgetful, don't blame her. Forgive and forget

Lord, You are More than Enough for me...

25th November 2005,

Fri evening- 5.30pm to be exact. Am still in the office, not of really busy, but waiting for the next appointment dinner. Tonite we won't be having Cell Group- instead we'll be meeting with our Iranian friends for dinner at Fishermen's Grill. It's time for catching up and felowship. Not pretty sure what's the plan after dinner, all has been pretty busy with work and other preparation- didn't really follow up on the Iranians. Hope Saeid still remmeber me. It's kinda weird after so long didn't meet up, suddenly we come out with plan for dinner to fill Iranian fellowship. May this time be a fruitful one- that it's just just filling up an assignment, but really extending friendship beyond the circle.

This week has been very relaxing. I spend a whole lot of my time in the room- mostly yahoo-chating, mailing, house-keeping yahoo-mails. Realise that I have too much un-read mail-mostly forwarded mail, some are articles, which i don't have the time to reach..so I save it in my "Inspiration" folder. After house-keeping still a lot mails. Realise that I'm so lazy nowadays...bad bad, got to change and discipline. Basically November is alright, but December will be hectic due to stock take and financial closure. Anticipating a lot clean-up on reporting and documentations.

Tomorrow will be attending Pon's wedding. Wow, this two months so many weddings- Ipoh (Kenneth), then Pon's tomorrow, then John's (Ipoh), and continuously the following weeks Huey Meng's. This year seem to be good year for marriage. Eric's one coming Jan; myself and Alicia gonna help up co-ordinating. Weddings- sharing the joyous occasion seeing how the Lord brought two souls together. Wondering how my wedding gonna be...hmm....learning to be satisfied in single life, to able to be happy as "Single in Married world or Single in Couples world". Never easy with the pressure around, but got to move on life.....I need to be satisfied and content in singlehood...as how Philipian addressed- Phil4:12- I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want..(to add whther in singlehood or married life:)) Treasure what I have today, and live each day as new breath from God with purpose.

Oh Lord, guide me through this journey.

Thank you for each new day,

each breath of the new day that is given to me.

Each freshness of morning dew and stillness of Your enduring Presence,

Let my heart able to speak of your fullness

that You are more than enough for me

May this life I live be a purposeful-being for Your Glory.

Amen...

November....December,.. time flies.

22nd November 2005,

Tuesday- 4.50pm. Time to pack up and go back home. Today has been pretty busy, yesterday on-leave. Nothing much to share in the blog. Life thus far has been good, Praise God. Time flies...it's November, another month December..then Christmas then New Year, I can't believe it! Too fast already, so many things happened, I've been working for 3 years plus. Year pass another year...am I growing in Grace? Growing in maturity in Christ? It's time for Life-Check, or spiritual-Check. Has life been comfortable, am I in anyway being complacent? What's the further committment to make? How should we seize the day in this end time, as the day approaching...something to ponder through.

Ps 90:9-12
9 All our days pass away under your wrath; we finish our years with a moan.
10 The length of our days is seventy years— or eighty, if we have the strength; yet their span [a] is but trouble and sorrow, for they quickly pass, and we fly away.
11 Who knows the power of your anger? For your wrath is as great as the fear that is due you.
12 Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.

Let it be the prayer of our hearts to honour Him with the time-span He has given to us...

I would not Quit!

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"I Would not Quit" He Said

One day I decided to quit...
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality...
I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
"God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"
His answer surprised me...

"Look around", He said.
"Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"
"Yes", I replied.
"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds,
I took very good care of them.
I gave them light.
I gave them water.
The fern quickly grew from the earth.
Its brilliant green covered the floor.
Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But I did not quit on the bamboo.
In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But I did not quit on the bamboo.

He said.
"In the third year, there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.
But I would not quit.
In the fourth year, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed.
"I would not quit."
He said."Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.
Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...
But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.
It had spent the five years growing roots.
Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.
I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle.

" He said to me.
"Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling,
you have actually been growing roots"
"I would not quit on the bamboo.
I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others."

He said.
"The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern.
Yet, they both make the forest beautiful."
"Your time will come", God said to me.
"You will rise high!"
"How high should I rise?" I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?"
He asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned.
"Yes."
He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can.
"I left the forest and bring back this story.

My Dialogue with God

Find this good....read on;

I went to God with all my sorrow, bitterness and frustration."God, oh God, please tell me what do you really want me to do or what you want me to be??" I asked.God led me to a river."Look into the river, my child.""What can you see?""Reflection." I said.God did not say anything but looked into my eyes and smiled. At that moment a thought dawned on me, and I said,"You want me to be a river which reflects your image and goodness."God nodded his head and smiled."But you haven't answer my question yet, God." "Look into the river again, my child." God said.I looked into the river again. And this time I did not see God's reflection but only my reflection in it."What do you see?" God asked.I see myself but not God in the reflection. Another thought dawned on me. For how many times, when I look into the mirror or the river, that I only see myself but not God?It's ! not that God did not show himself, but I chose to see only myself, rather than him. What I wanna see, it's only ME, ME, ME."If you only can see yourself, how will you remember me or my teaching?" God asked with a soft voice, still smiling.I was ashamed, yet I was stubborn, and I'm always stubborn."Yes, Father, I know I always put myself before you for everything, but today I came to you to ask A question, and I just want THE answer."

"Tell me what does the water do, my child." God said, still not answering my question directly."The water?? ...hmmm, the water is always soft and obedient...and no matter what kind of container you pour the water in, the water will matches the shape of the container it is in perfectly.""And how about you?" God turned to me and asked aga! in, with a light twinkling in His eyes.I'm stubborn, I'm not as soft as the water. I just wanna be myself, even though I always promise God I will let Him shape me, but I argue and struggle with Him. I just wanna be whom I wanna be. I want myself to look like what myself want to see.God poured me into a jar, I don't wanna be shaped as the jar, I struggled so hard till I broke the jar.The more I pondered about it, the more I was ashamed of myself. I did not dare to look up nor to answer God.But God heard me and knew me.

He was still smiling, like nothing could possibly upset Him. Like what I have done still not enough to let Him down."Listen to the voice of the river, my child." He said.I closed my eyes and listened attentively.I heard th! e voice of the river running, and all of a sudden I could also hear the singing of the insects and the noise produced by the leaves rubbing against each other when the wind came by.I opened my eyes and found myself standing alone in a deep, thick forest. God is gone."My God, my God, WHERE ARE YOU????!!" I screamed out of horror and fear. Yet I dared not to move even a step."Listen to the voice of the river, my child." God said, still not showing himself.I was such a nervous wreck, yet there was nothing I could do except followed God's instruction.I drew a few deep breath, calmed myself down, closed my eyes again and listened.I could hear the flowing of river again, and this time, a thought flew through my mind and I grabbed ! it before it was gone again.(If I walked along the river, the river will bring me back to the civilization or bring me out of this forest.) So said the thought.I opened my eyes with joy and walked toward the river. But the forest was gone in a second and I was back to the riverside with God standing beside me.God smiled to me again and said,"If you were lost in a deep thick forest, If you would just stop and be still and listen, You would hear the voice of the river -- that's ME.If you would just walked along the river, If you would just followed the river,You would find the way out from the forest -- If you would ju! st follow me and walk along me, You would find THE WAY."I was dumbfounded by God's wisdom and teaching, all I could do was looked at Him in awe.God rubbed my head and said," Did I answer your question yet? If not, come back and see me tomorrow."

Annual Dinner tonite- 15th November 2005

15th November 2005,

Tuesday Morning- tonite will be Annual Dinner, and it's a weekday. A lot has been asking why is that weekdays, usually Annual Dinner should be weekends, yeah, company want to cut cost:) I guess. It'll be real hectic with this sort of programs lining up in the weekdays.

Mundane work for the whole week, need some breakthrough. Still finds difficult in relating to my staff. It's the pressure innerly or pressure outside? I need to overcome this by the change of the thinking, a first step, a smile of warmth, and acceptance of each individuals...not just the strength alone, but also the weakness of different people. The pride need to be pulled down, insecurity? Working the best- and be assured that the Boss Above will reward me accordingly, not according to worldly measures and riches, but according to heavenly riches above. A Change of thinking- Positive thinking and attitude, it's so much needed. I got to not just learn, but have some change and paradigm shift of the thinking.

O Lord, help me. I want to, it's difficult- I know, but I trust You, Your Words and Promises, teach me the basic, and where to begin. .. to love, to motivate, to stir ones up- to be good testimony in workplace that bear Your Name, that You alone be glorified...Amen!

Passion for the Lost

12th November 2005,

Saturday morning- write something before start work. Today Mag and Charmine not around, they attending Pharmacy Scientific Conference in KL, Saturday will have a lot of patients, and prayfully that things will go well. Asked God for heart of wisdom and to be involved in my encounter with work.

Last night All Night Prayer. We watched Mother Theresa's movie. A unselfish life that has been given to God for people. A compassion heart, moved with the needs and people. It remind me on the phrase "You can give without Love, but You can't Love without Giving". She give her whole life- she's into the street, doing whatever she can to save 'one'. No need many- one, as it goes...she start out having the determination to reach out. Step out in faith. We prayed, we pray for heart of compassion. The Spirit of God moved among His people- showing us the basic of all, the basic simple Love- compassion heart. We repented, ...our eyes has been blinded and swayed by the selfish desire of building our own mansion. We have lost the zeal for evangelism- we have failed in many ways. Yeah, the time is near...How should be our response? Is it just a information to stir up the emotion to repent, to cry out and after a while going back to normal, or it's a change of heart, a transformation? How are we responding; to respond-- to act it out. A challenge. But a challenge should not remain jst challenge but some action and change.

Challenged Scripture Heb 12:1-2

1Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith,

let us strip off every weight that slows us down,

especially the sin that so easily hinders our progress.

And let us run with endurance the race that God has set before us.

2We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus,

on whom our faith depends from start to finish

(New Living Translation)

My Life Declaration

7th November 2005,

Monday morning- Life GAMES is over, and now it's no longer a game, it's Life, and it's gonna move...The Race is ON, the Clock is Ticking. How do we want to choose the Road of Life? How should the runner run? How will be the Reward of life? How do we want to live? The survival Life? The successful life? Or the significant Life? The choice is yours. You choose your way of life. A reflection of life, The past has gone, the new has come...Life Games, a start of new life, new purpose, new focus in life. Oh Lord, here's my declaration. I am willing, I surrender my life to You once again...

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MY LIFE DECLARATION
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Today I am stepping across the line. I'm tired of waffling, and I'm finished with wavering. I've made my choice and my decision is irrevocable. I'm going God's way. There's no turning back now!

I will live the rest of my life serving God's purpose with God's people on God's planet for God's glory. I will use my life to celebrate His presece, cultivate His character, participate in His family, demonstrate His love, and communicate His Word.

Since my past has been forgiven and I have a purpose for living and a home awaiting in heaven, I refuse to waste any more time or energy on shallow living, petty thinking, trivial talking, thoughtless doing, useless regretting, hurtful resenting, or faithless worrying. Instead, I will magnify God, grow to maturity, serve in ministry, and fulfill my mission in the membership of His family.

Because this life is preparation for the next, I will value worship over wealth, "we" over "me", character over comfort, service over status, and people over possessions, position and pleasures. I know what matters most, and I'll give it all I've got. I'll do the best I can with what I have for Jesus Christ today.

I won't be captivated by culture, manipulated by critics, motivated by praise, frustrated by problems, debilitated by temptation, or intimidated by the devil. I'll keep running the race with my eyes on the goal, not the sidelines or those running by me. When times get tough, and I get tired, I won't back up, back off, back down, back out, or backslide. I'll just keep moving forward by God's grace. I', Spirit-led, purpose-driven and mission-focused, so I cannot be bought, I will not be compromised, and I shall not quit until I finish the race.

I'm a trophy of God's amazing grace, so I will be gracious to everyone, grateful for everyday, and generous with everything that God entrusts to me.

To my Lord and Savious Jesus Christ, I say: However, whenever, wherever and whatever You ask me to do, my answer in advance is Yes! Wherever You lead and whatever the cost, I'm ready. Anytime, anywhere, anyway. Whatever it takes Lord; whatever it takes! I want to be used by You in such a way, that on that final day I'll hear You say: "welldone, good and faithful servant! Come and share your master happiness!"

In the Presence of God: signed by Shirley Moy
This day: 7th November 2005
Scripture verse: Heb 12: 1-2